indescribable amorousness

I've never been to sure about anything in my life. Always second guessing myself and questioning things; but you are unquestionable. They say you'll know love from the minute it hits you. Well with you love is like an oncoming train; and every time I see you it hits me again and again. I'm seventeen years old but I know what I want. I want you; everyday. Not just 'til tomorrow or the next day, but everyday. Everyday for the rest of my life. Sometimes when you're sleeping next to me I look over at you and so many feelings hit me at once. I can't explain the rush. My heart flutters and I wonder how I got so amazingly lucky. I love everything about you. The way you smell, your smile, your style, your personality; the way you have the ability to make me laugh at anything you say, how you keep me under control when I feel my life is spinning out of it, your eyes, your smile, the way my hand fits into yours. The best part though is still in those moments when you're sleeping, and I can just think about the days we've spent together. Before you I wasn't afraid of dying and leaving this life behind. Now a life without you seems to be unbearable. The few days I spend without you are maddening. You are my sanity. I've been waiting for someone like you for all my life. You're not only my boyfriend but my best friend. I can tell you anything and you accept me for the mess I am. You always help me find away to fix my problems. I wish I could spend every waking moment curled up next to you in bed. You are my everything. I try so hard to put all my feelings into words like this but this still isn't enough, nothing is enough. I wish I could show you an ounce, an inch of how I feel. You make me feel weightless and so full of hope. I love you from here to jupiter to pluto to mars and back and then all around again. I love you times a billion fajinity. I love you Richard Newman so much. I can not wait to grow old with you.