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okay so i really, really, really do not keep up on this but now i'm trying to get some shit off my chest. There's a couple things first off i guess i'll start with school. ITS OVER!!!!!! It's so weird to say that. I'm not going to be going to a public school next year and i'm going to actually miss some people!!! It was a good year and i want to thank everyone who got me through it! Ms. Hartman especially, thank you for being the most amazing teacher i've ever had.

Next is about a so called "good family friend" i'm usually against putting names up here on this but hell i'm supposed to say how i feel on this and be open about everything well then i'm going to ya know! Logan Wells i had a lot of respect for you and you were like a brother to me. I don't know who you even are anymore. It's so weird how things changed so fast. You went from being here almost every night to now only hearing your name occasionally from my moms lips. & don't even try and go blaming this on my mom because she didn't tell you to stop picking up the phone or talking to me. It's lame, thanks for being here for me always like you said. &also i've heard you got a new girlfriend and i'm happy for you... well i was until i heard she doesn't want you to be in touch with my family. I've never lost so much respect for one person so fast. I never thought i'd ever see you as this kind of person. You're more of a child than I am. You're just like every other man that has enters my mom's life. You're a jerk, you're pathetic. You're nobody.

Next is about my life personally. I've made some pretty bad decisions lately in my life. I can't take back what i've done but i would hope none of you would judge me for my actions. We all make mistakes some bigger than others and mine lately have been pretty big. I opened the bible for the first time in a while and i opened to one of my favorite verses that also fit my circumstances very well right now

"Come to me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light." (Matthew 11:28)

I'm putting my life in God's hands again. Its time for me to realize that I need to figure out how God wants me to work my life, Not how to work God into my life. Thank you to all of my friends who have been good to me, and have helped me keep my chin up.


One last thing. I found out the hardest thing to ever do is sit and watch your best friend suffer and feel pain. If i could do anything right now it would be to take his pain and put it on me. You're my best friend Ron and to see you like this kills me. I love you & you know i'm always going to be here, if you need anything just ask.

Oh and my sister graduates today, Love you Gabby!!!!!!!!
oh and happy friday the 13th SUCKKAASSSS