slackin'

totally slackin' off on this and it's kinda sad so i'm going to update. I'm not really sure what's been going on in my life as of right now. I feel like i'm just waking up and doing the same stupid shit everyday and its getting lame. I guess its a fault on my part though. Last weekend completely blew the big one. i mean i love spending time with the fam and it was way good to get away but still, i just haven't been having as much fun as i usually do. lamesauce. i miss a lot of people so much WHERE THE FUCK DID YALL GO?! Can't wait till i can drive and get to see the people who mean the most. LIFE SUCKS IN HARLEYSVILLE. On some realness though cannot wait to start cyber school. Totally syked don't care what people have to say to bash it. By the way i totally and completely miss you Ky Rodriguez ;]. Let's go to dorney park & the fig on saturday. Sounds good :]


anyway i guess that's all for now. this is so stupid. ugh.

forget me not

i really miss you. everything about you.
please don't forget me as time goes on.
i still care so much about you it hurts
everyday, but i know you're happier.

you know who you are. your perfect.
i wubba you.

realization

i just realized something;
people stop caring.

taco munchin'

listen if you don't like what i have to say then don't read what i'm writing all right? i've had a couple people be like "WHAT THE FUCKK" but really if you got a problem take it up personally with me, don't be spreading shit. Alright thanks, anyway... shits been rough with the boyfriend. I'm not really sure where me and him are headed but we're going to do our best to get through this tough part. All relationships hit bumpy rocks on the way right? Who fuckin' cares i love him and it's almost summer! Trying to hang out with some good people like old times. 3 more months until i'm driving so excited! I deff want to see everyone especially you reading kids who i miss the fuck out of. I also miss my good friend Amy Green and Eric Silverman good ass times with them. "YOU TOLD ME TO EAT THE TACO THEN YOU LAUGHEDD?!?!?!" Anyways i got to go off to the gym soon so i'm going to get ready and eat real fast. my dogs like barfing also. Anyway sorry this is the worst post ever.

skin deep

i've realized a lot of shit keeps changing and it's happening way too fast. i can't keep my emotions in line and i find myself lurking in the past. i can't bring it back, the end, it's gone. i want to move on but i can't. so many good memories, so many good people, all gone. my old best friend of six years grew up and now is in a treatment home. how can things go from great to shit so fast. i've given up on so many people. i find myself complaining about things more and more when i should be greatful and excited for what my future holds. i've treated some amazing people like shit and lost my way with my lord and savior. i can't figure out what's happening next but i promise it's time for me to let go and change with everything and everyone else. no more complaining and tears. i'm sorry if i've taken any of you for granted these past few months and even years. i'm mostly changing for myself though, because i want to be happy like i used to be but in a new and better way. i think i'll start by toning my body in a healthy way with excercise.